​~Defying Gravity~

No more clouds of doubts…

I should start trusting my instincts

You are someone worth keeping

Someone worth loving

But I am too coward to give a try

I love you, yes I really do

Yet no sign you feel the same way too

I should defy gravity

Stop my heart from falling for you 

Defy what nature’s calling for I am not expecting anything in return…

I’m just happy… just happy

Love lives in me
(c) Quirkyshine 
Image: google


Truth be told…

Even though my heart denies everything…

The emotions

The sudden beating 

The unexplained excitement

That I cannot contest what it feels at the moment.

That somewhere in my dreams I found relief from this unforeseen catastrophe.

That before love becomes an unavoidable casualty it needs thorough attention.

A phenomenon in my life I need to embrace…

Surrendering to the fact… that I’m falling for you.
(c) Quirkyshine ❤❤❤

Image: google 



In times of hardship

When it’s difficult to understand 

When it’s tearing your heart 


In times of confusion 

When waking up is such a burden

And sleeping is a struggle too


In times of silence

When so many letters left unwritten 

And words aren’t enough to fill the void


When you have to wait

For love to be finally yours

When you have to embrace 

All the troubles that come your way

When it’s wrecking your sanity.


Since time immemorial 

Is always patient and kind

It never loses hope

Love in times of defeat

Love in times of darkness

For better or for worse 

Love with the intention to persevere

Love is patient 
(c) quirky
*Image from google

~Heart Check: Please Take Good Care of Your Heart~

The realities of love are often perplexing, seemingly hard to understand. The bible tells us to guard our hearts, for everything we do flows from it. Does it guarantee immunity from pain? Does love favor the bravest? Some people cling to the belief that shielding one’s heart will save them from getting hurt but I do not subscribe to such line of reasoning. Reality always scares us – no, it’s the tangible side of reality. Though love sometimes leads to serious distress, some people still choose to experience love because that’s the only way to unlock its mystery.
I am truly grateful for the day I allowed myself to get hurt, the day I supported my impetuous heart. The moment we commit to someone gives birth to pain because not all relationships have happy endings.
Love doesn’t mature in tranquil times; love doesn’t flourish in untilled hearts; for love to grow – we must learn how to swim against powerful tides, surpass the test of time, get even with all odds, lose some winning games, and break into tormenting zones.
Guarding your heart doesn’t mean “not” allowing ourselves getting bruises and burns. It’s  definitely impossible not to get hurt in any romantic relationships. We cannot stop some forces of nature. Sometimes we injure ourselves while walking, preparing meals, or opening windows but we have to walk to reach our destination, eat to satiate our hunger or open the window to breathe some fresh air. Same goes for love, you’ll never know the magic it brings if you’re too afraid to take risks.
To guard our hearts means to be mindful of what we plant inside. According to the bible, “we harvest what we plant.” If fear, we’ll miss the thrill of life. If pride, we’ll lose some good opportunities. If greed, we’ll gain nothing but turmoil. If jealousy, we’ll see no beauty in everyone. If hatred, we’ll never find love.
Therefore, allow love to reside in your heart. Concede to its undesirable perplexities. Indulge in its biting reality. Embrace all uncertainties. Letting our hearts get broken for countless times because there are lessons learned from every fall, a pot of gold, after all.
Written by: Quirkyshine

~She Loves Us the Most~ (Mother’s Day Special)


“Life doesn’t come with a manual, it comes with a mother.”


It’s often unsaid, the words our mothers would love to hear from us. Just because a mother’s love is unconditional doesn’t mean they don’t want to hear our simple words of appreciation for their sacrifices. Though no amount of gratitude can ever suffice for their hard work, still we must not forget to give them some sweet and heartily acknowledgement.

Today, we celebrate Mother’s day and it’s time to give back for the countless wisdom our mothers taught us. A mother/mama/mommy/nanay/inay/umma is a wonderful creation of God. Mothers are just so amazing they can understand our silence, carry our heavy loads, and shift our tears to smiles. She will always be the light of our lives.

My relationship with my mother is really a good one. Although we’ve had our fair share of terrible days but our bond remains strong. I may never understand the language she used in talking to God but her prayers are always powerful. My mama is a great catalyst, her stories of success and downfall become our source of inspiration; without her, life would have been more difficult. She will always be my best teacher, it may not be like a classroom setting but her wisdom outshines any theory I learn from school. That’s my beautiful mother!

I am eternally grateful for my mother – her strength, convictions, patience, dedication, and faith. I never would have made it through life without her greatest love. She will always be the best medicine – the best remedy when I am not feeling good.

To my mama,

Ma, no picture can ever paint your beautiful soul. For EVERYTHING, for the faith, and for the love, thank you very much! Ma, you mean so much to me so please take good care of your health. I need you ma, your healing touch, your unwavering faith to our Lord, and your powerful prayers. Please forgive me for my tantrums, I know sometimes I act impulsively without considering your feelings and I am so sorry for that ma. I am really blessed that you are my mother and I thank God for having you as my tour guide in life. I will always honor you for gazillion reasons as you truly deserve all the best praises and appreciation. Thank you! Thank you! Ma, I love you very much, I may not be as expressive as other daughters (children) but never ever doubt my love and respect for you. I wish you all the best, finest, and beautiful things in life. May God give you a perfect health everyday. We love you ma! And you’re the greatest mom in the whole world.  Happy Mother’s Day Ma!

With love,


“A mother is she who can take the place of all others but whose place no one else can take.”

To all mothers in the world… may your life be filled with love and blessings and sweet memories to cherish with your family. May God bless you with good health and peace. Happy Mother’s Day!




You bring much joy! Simple, sweet, and sincere joy. Yes you are a spark to behold. A feeling I wanted to last – a lifetime, till death… who knows?  Are you mine for keeps? ‘Cause you bring much joy! 
This is just my way of telling you,  how happy I am right now… that I wanna love like this for life… love like I have never loved before and kiss for the first time in forever. 
Please listen closely to the sound of magic… your kind of magic… the spell that unites the planets and stars. Listen to the music… there are symphonies and rhythms, rhymes and notes, words and verses. This joy! This delight! This bliss! 
All because of you. 
(c) Quirkyshine 

​~Is it Really Love?~

Dear Doubting Heart,
Something’s holding me back… could it be the distance? Could it be our fate? I don’t know… But I need to remind you once more that you’re too fragile to fall in love again… you’re too broken for another heartbreak. 
Is it really love? Or attachment?

Does it have to be complicated? Asking for signs, finding all the right reasons even though obviously wrong. You are too stubborn to heed the warnings. 
Dear heart, it’s way too soon to give in to your cravings. Why not pause for a minute… search from within… wait until it pleases… till the universe conspires… till it’s time. Just stay where you are. 
Is it really love?

Your Master

(c) Quirkyshine 
“Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.” Song of Solomon 8:4

~The Suicide Note~ (An Article)


I am writing this article not to catch attention, not to end my life, not to question why life messed up sometimes, but to relieve me of the guilt for not telling the world why suicidal notes shouldn’t be taken lightly, more specifically why those people afraid to dance with their own misfortunes cling to death like the only option left.

Have I written one? Have I thought of it? I would be lying if I said “No”. For years I’ve been thinking about thousand ways to die and million solutions to combat a mental crime. It is not that suicidal people were running out of choices – sometimes dying is possibly the only option at the moment, like the only answer to their sufferings and the only remedy to stop their miseries. It makes no sense for those who valued life but caveats should string along with such delicate matter.

Frankly, it occurred to me that morbid choice but I wasn’t ready to cross the line. I am not that strong enough to press the “death button” for reason that I still thirst for the truth of my existence. For some people it is a frightening thing to talk about but have you ever walked in our shoes? Do you understand our journey?

If you have never passed this horrendous route, then you’re doing well in your odyssey. Good job amigo! And never ever buy a ticket just to experience its begrudging trail.

I’m not ashamed to tell the world about this ordeal and I am writing for and on behalf of the million people with the same adversary. What’s in our mind? What’s eating us? And all the whats questions on your list about this mental crime I’ll give you a clue.

Let’s begin with the letter I wrote dated March 2011:

Dear life,

Why were you not so nice to me? There is nothing glorious in my life now; I tried to see the positive side of life but I cannot find the right words to make them understand that living is too painful right now. How can I stop hurting people? I know it will hurt my family but how will I end this pain? Why am I not special? Why can’t I make life perfect? Had I known all the answers to these questions, I would never knock on your door. The only thing I wanna taste now is my own blood, the only place I wanna live now is nothingness, I don’t see myself special anymore, and I hate what I see in the mirror, I cannot even describe it for you as it is disturbing, despicable, and disgusting. Felt like am cursed and am in hell now. I am sorry.



Seriously, I was a lost voyager that time, driving the same highway, the same routine, seeing the same billboard; it was really a monotonous journey, as nothing worth venturing that time. I slogged through in pursuit of happiness yet fruitless. So I stopped connecting with people and thrown a pity party instead. Then I caught myself preparing my own funeral as I wasn’t happy anymore.

We all have terrible days, dark secrets, unresolved regrets, shameful battles – we all go through series of distress yet only a few managed to withstand its dreadful impact. How did I survive? It wasn’t easy, but worth fighting for. Sometimes our thoughts are too powerful they lure us to self-destruction. While baiting negative reasons, life took advantage of my weaknesses and wrote a reply to death.

Dear Death,

I’m really sorry but I cannot take your call while I’m in the middle of processing her thoughts. Sorry if I made you feel upset but I need to turn you down. You were right I wasn’t nice to her; I like to put much pressure on her, demand difficult tasks because I want to teach her important lessons – lessons of survival and hope. The adversary she is facing now is my way of molding her into a better person. If she feels like there is nothing glorious in her life now? Remember that everything is fleeting, even her pain, I may be hard on her but it will be nothing compared to the glory that will be revealed to her in the future. If she wants to stop hurting people then she must stop hurting herself too. The only way to end this suffering is not by knocking on your door but by seeking more of me – seeking truths about me. I’m not going to sugar-coat anything and tell her that “feel all of them and she’ll be fine” cause I know it takes time. If she wanna taste her own blood she must see to it it’s like drinking fine wine, turning downfalls to victories, accepting the situation she is in and that she is in control of every sip. If she wanna live into nothingness allow me to join her, at first she’ll get annoyed by my presence, yet she must keep her eyes on the ball, wait cause I’m going to break the end of the tunnel for her to see the light. If she feels like she isn’t special, glad she’s wrong because she’s the chosen one to bear this cross, one day someone will look for her and read her story for she has surpassed the special test of life. She’ll be the greatest victor and the light to someone with the same plight. But for now, allow her to feel all the pain… allow her to entertain thoughts of you… a risk I will leave to you cause I know your willingness to cooperate with me. Don’t give in to her desires, you have your time, she’s still my responsibility, I am teaching her how to play with life creatively until it’s time.



Let us always remind ourselves that what had happened cannot be undone, but we are always in control of our responses. Believe that the best choice to face all adversities is to choose life.

According to Josh McDowell, “No matter how devastating our struggles, disappointments, and troubles are, they are only temporary. No matter what happens to you, no matter the depth of tragedy or pain you face, no matter how death stalks you and your loved ones, the Resurrection promises you a future of immeasurable good.”

Written by: Quirky Shine



The clock is ticking

I am in between the ebb and flow

Of holding on and letting go


Chasing the glorious morning

I am somewhere in the middle of joy and sorrow

Better things fall together

As the sky changes its color

From crimson red to pale mint blue 


Devoid of muse to write a tale

Short of words 

Let mine heart be guided

Hush the clamor of the soul 

Silence speaks of love and passion


Do you hear what I hear?

A beat catching up with old melodies

I don’t have enough time to rewind past symphonies 

Only got a minute dash to collect sweet reveries

Before memories of you fade
(c) Quirkyshine


​Dear love,

You are my comfort zone. Yes, I feel safe with you, yet you are not my favorite place, never will be. You are not my kind of haven and I’m so sorry. Forgive me for keeping a safe distance until I learn more about parameters. I wanted to try new formulas and solutions but am afraid it will be another misguided calculation. So allow me this time to reflect on things that matter most. 
Are you just a fleeting emotion?

Are you my anticipated failure?

Are you my future hesitancy?

Are you another proof of uncertainty?
While yielding to disprove your fallacy, I will let time unfold itself and test my own theory. I believe there’s more to our story. More and more to learn… hence, I’ll keep on testing these hypotheses till I master the art of loving you.
Yours truly,

Doubting Heart
(c) Quirkyshine ❤❤❤