~Unsent Letter~

To the one who badly broke my heart…
I wish I could find a pill to forget you

I even prayed harder that God will make me numb

So this heart of mine would stop bleeding


I tried to stay away from the limelight

Did all my best not to think of you most of the time

I never talked about you anymore

And I tried moving on from our painful parting


But I can’t… 

I just can’t…

Something is not right

It is wrong to keep my hopes high


You are still in my heart

Always as always

And memories keep coming back


I am not missing one of them

Since I live in fantasy everyday

To keep those memories alive


It’s really hard to let go of this love

Since you mean so much to me

And I made a promise not to leave you

Don’t  know if I should keep those words


You are far away now

Beyond my sights’ reach


You are not the perfect guy to chase

Just cute but not handsome

Just cool but not a head turner

You are not every woman’s fantasy


But this heart is strange

It always points back to you


Strange why I really want you

Strange why my heart is always looking for you

When you are no longer looking for me


Strange that you don’t actually deserve me

But this heart says you are the best for me


Strange that you might be loving someone else now

Yet this heart hopes it’s still me you love


Strange that we were like cats and dogs

Yet I missed those arguments ’cause thats how I learned to be humble


I wish to find the light

As every night gets colder

Sometimes tears just roll down my face

‘Cause I badly missed you

How I wish this feeling

Would just go away

So no more dying each day

​~If I Had a Minute Without You in My Mind~

What would life be like if I had a minute without You in my mind?

Perhaps 60 seconds of clarity

No sorrows

No aches

60 seconds of peace

No self-doubts

No confusions 

60 seconds of hope

No darkness 

No gasping of breath

If I had a minute without you in my mind

Will it change the course of history?

Will my heart be the same?

Can it still feel pain?

If I had a minute without you in my mind…

Perhaps 60 seconds of living a full life

No emptiness 

No void to fill

No loneliness 

For 60 meaningful seconds

A moment of stillness 

A taste of what I must do today

Not to wait for tomorrow 

If I can do it…

I must do it now

If I had 60 seconds without you in my mind

There will be silence

For every second… minute… hour of the day

You never left my mind

And so this 60 seconds free of you

Let me try a minute to unlove you

If I had 60 seconds without you in my mind.

~A Tearful Love~

Once upon a time

I met a fragile heart

So deeply wounded I tried to stitch it’s cut

I weep for nights

Praying I could mend the sorrows in his eyes

I really do love this heart

Hoping there’s a magic pill 

That will let him forget all the pain last night

If only my tears could cure his heartache

I am ready to cry a river of tears

What went wrong to lovers who believe there is forever?

Am I his keeper? 

The one his God sent to him?

Is he the one for me? 

My saviour summoned me to take good care?

Oh God where were you when we were both drowning in tears?

Why do you allow this to happen?

Crossing paths

In the end they have to part ways

Sometimes life is really unfair

Two tearful hearts

Have to make sacrifices

For it is the best

Oh God! Please hear my plee

To keep his heart safe always

To walk beside him today

Carry him when load’s too heavy

Make his heart whole again in time

Cause he is everything to me

May peace we find in our respective journey

And healing we find in shoulders of friends

Oh God! This tearful love

Not a million storms could wash away the pain

The happy ever after

I pray will be in our hands again someday

Β© quirky

~The Ship Has Sailed~

I hear no voice

I see no shadow

I smell no perfume

The ship has sailed

While counting stars

I lost the rhythm

Not a remnant of our memories

It hit me hard

Knowing I can’t ever

Taste your smile again

Grey clouds build up

Forgetting your fairest sunshine

You know I hate goodbyes