~Unsent Letter~

To the one who badly broke my heart…
I wish I could find a pill to forget you

I even prayed harder that God will make me numb

So this heart of mine would stop bleeding

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I tried to stay away from the limelight

Did all my best not to think of you most of the time

I never talked about you anymore

And I tried moving on from our painful parting

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But I can’t… 

I just can’t…

Something is not right

It is wrong to keep my hopes high

~

You are still in my heart

Always as always

And memories keep coming back

~

I am not missing one of them

Since I live in fantasy everyday

To keep those memories alive

~

It’s really hard to let go of this love

Since you mean so much to me

And I made a promise not to leave you

Don’t  know if I should keep those words

~

You are far away now

Beyond my sights’ reach

~

You are not the perfect guy to chase

Just cute but not handsome

Just cool but not a head turner

You are not every woman’s fantasy

~

But this heart is strange

It always points back to you

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Strange why I really want you

Strange why my heart is always looking for you

When you are no longer looking for me

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Strange that you don’t actually deserve me

But this heart says you are the best for me

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Strange that you might be loving someone else now

Yet this heart hopes it’s still me you love

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Strange that we were like cats and dogs

Yet I missed those arguments ’cause thats how I learned to be humble

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I wish to find the light

As every night gets colder

Sometimes tears just roll down my face

‘Cause I badly missed you

How I wish this feeling

Would just go away

So no more dying each day
~quirky