~Soul Searching~

I know I lost you
Somewhere…
I couldn’t recall
Where I have been
How I dropped my senses
It is just too heavy
For me to keep my sanity
I woke up in a different world
New faces I met
And places I have never explored
I know I lost you…
A dying smoke slowly fading
Tears won’t stop falling
I have completely gone astray
I perished along with peace
In chaos and confusions I live
I wandered into slavery
Became a prisoner of my own adversity
Woe, I cannot escape from my own predicament
I was poisoned by my self serving torment
Loneliness is what brought me here
Searching a cure seemed futile
I devoured in hate
Feed too much of distress
I know I lost you…
A happy soul I once was
To find you again
I have to depart from this world

©quirkyshine

*”Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves.” ~Henry David Thoreau.

~The Psyche~

Alas this darkness
I failed to succumb to lightness
I exist to love chaos
To create war within my thoughts
To fear angels
To celebrate with my own demons
I am worthless
Reckless in my words
A second-rate poet
Surrounded by legends
Inside there’s a battle going on
Matter over mind
Hate over love
Destruction over clarity
None can tame my shadow
Who can stop me?
Till death join me as I weep in my own funeral

© quirky shine

~Barenaked~

Ah the love…
A night of supposed to be excitement
Yet we were pensive for a moment
I exposed myself to nakedness
Baring all the scars and bruises from the past
For you to embrace
For me to feel your heart
I shed more tears
As I stripped off the fears that clothed me for years
Denuded by your assurance of eternal passion
You disrobed my thoughts
Slowly lurking out into surface
The nudeness of my soul
You can’t ignore
The purest words you hear from my mouth
Will you love me the same?
Unclothed
Uncovered
Undressed
Unveiled
Unprotected
Raw
Defenseless
Will you love me with no conditions?
For who I am and  who I can become?
Ah the love!
A night of discovery
Leaving us both vulnerable

© quirky shine

~Perhaps~

Perhaps…
Life is a dream
A fairy tale every kid loves to listen
We travel
We venture to the unknown
Visualizing the truth of tomorrow
Forgetting all the wrong turns in the past
Perhaps…
Life is like a roller coaster
Fancy joys
All the ups and downs
They collide to create your story
For you to tell
For them to live by
Perhaps…
Life will never run out of sunshine
Whenever it rains
You’ll know you have a rainbow as your friend
All the pains and sorrows
Be out of sight
Perhaps…
Life is love
You live to feel and to express
To show it’s purest form
All your senses become one
They conspire
For you to see the truth
That there is more to life than your heartaches
More to see in reality than your mere illusions
More rain for you to enjoy dancing
More and more to life
Than you could ever imagine
Do be happy
Do it right
You only live once
Perhaps.

© quirky shine

~Myriad of Love~

Many many things…
My eyes see more
More than my sight can hold
You are the bluest sky
I am the deepest sea
Our love became the horizon
Blurry from the farthest point
Limitless  beyond what the arms can measure
Sailing through to reach the port
Seeking answers to point of no return
Where illusions never stop passing by
My mind waits for the heart to speak
The heart knows what the soul longs to feel
Many many things…
I say a lot
I think too much
In the end I found relief
It wouldn’t matter
I will make the call
Many many things…
I’d like to know more
More about you
The history of your scars
The magic of your smile
What makes you tear?
How much love you have for me
Many many things…
There is more to love than to fear

© quirkyshine

~All of Me Loves All of You~

~All of Me~ 

All of me loves all of you
I wonder what life would be if we let our hearts free
I am so in love with love
The kind of love that spells your name
You are in my vision
The dream I live in reality
You are the rhythm
That keeps my pen alive
Your smile is engraved on my heart
Never will I forget the day you walked into my life
All of me loves all of you
It will be your silence I will love the most
When your thoughts are surrounded by clouds
And your mind could not speak the truth you ought to say
When your heart cannot sustain the weeping of your soul
I will still love you at your worst
And wait till the ebbing of the tides
All of me loves of you
It will be your space I am going to break in
To decorate some kisses and cares, caresses and hugs
When you find it difficult to love yourself
All of me loves all of you
You are the magic that came so quickly
I am praying for the spark to last a lifetime
All of me loves all of you
I will always be there
To love you till my hearts content

© quirkyshine

~Encompass~

Heart that seeks shelter…
A haven two souls can embrace quietude
In the stillness of the night
The calmness of the tides
The brief interlude of thoughts pouring its frailness
Lovers has a home in each others’ arms
Heart that only knows clarity…
Where mind pursuits lucidity
The truth we both keep in our hands
Preserving the passion we both found
While dealing  all the tormentous plagues
That blurred our sight
Heart that fuels desires
Yearning to be together
Longing for the warmth deep inside our core
Sweating out the sweetest nectar of our love
In this state
Where our hearts entwine
Blissful days
Surround our future
Encompass

© quirky shine

~Someone Like You~

Dear Past
Why did you break this poet’s heart?
How could you leave him in his vulnerable state?
All he knows is to love you
For better or for worse
Even defy death for you to see his heart
His words written only for a pretty muse are pure and simple
With a promise that he’ll come back for you
Yet why can’t you love this poet?
Whose soul is bleeding
Weeping over you
I wish to give you my eyes
So you could see his heart through me
Why can’t you love this lonely poet?
Is it just because he cannot give you the stars and the moon?
So you left him empty handed
With deep voidness to fill in
And here comes an avenger
Searching for truth she cannot find
Can she erase all his fears?
When she is even scared to try
Is she someone he needs in his life?
Or will she be someone like you
Another fool who is afraid to take the risk?

~quirky

~Musings of the Expressionist~

Dear Love
What shall I do now?
Now that I have completely fallin’ for you
You gave me reasons to still believe in miracles
To wait for surprises
To see what is ahead of us
Something to look forward in the future
Can this be love already?
Every time I close my eyes
I sigh! I breathe deeply
Wishing you were here with me
A hug would be alright
Little kisses but not too much
I just wanna hold your hand
And may never let go of it
You hold my heart now
A keeper I know I can fully trust
Yet I cannot say
“Yes I am all yours now”
You know what I mean?
I am not good in so many things
I am so hard to be with
I get so terrible sometimes
Bad hair days
Mood swings
Noisy and loud
Funny and the not so funny jokes
I get lost sometimes
Confused, anxious, scared
Will you be there in times I am difficult to love?
Sometimes I say serious stuff
For you to think about
It may be just some weird predictions of what would happen in the near future
Can you help me with my faith?
Help me with my struggles inside?
More challenges I added to you
A burden I have become
Help me believe in your heart
Show me what love is all about
Tell me stories
Of endless love
Will you be there when I have to weather all storms
Can you be my rainbow?
Can you be the rain when I can’t get through this pain?
Can you be my voice when I can’t speak?
Be my thoughts when I can’t think?
Can you fill my pen with your ink?
Write my words I can’t even express?
I have so many demands
While you only ask for one thing
Just to love you
And everything will follow
And so here I am
Scribbling in the new pages of my book
A different chapter
Another fairy tale
About to unfold
Once upon a time…
Will there be a happy ever after waiting?
Love, Quirky

© Quirky

~Early Musings~ #1

How to love a poet?
Either you read his words
Or just feel his heart
Yes a poet – you are
Sweet, gentle, and romantic
Like all your poems
Do I really love a poet?
Do I listen to his poems?
Or do I read his heart?
Yes a poet – you are
Words may vanish
But never that smile you always put on my face
Every time you speak with all of your heart
Will I love a poet in my entire life?
Yes a poet – you are
Well I don’t know
I found your soul before you start writing for me
Action speaks louder than your poems
My heart listens more to the beatings of your heart
Than the rhythms of your sonnets
So how to love a poet?
Yes a poet – you are
That I need to find out

~quirky