~Ben and Ben~

I was not supposed to hate you…
Whatever I do, whatever I feed to my thoughts
I always come back to our friendship
No matter how mad or angry I become
I can’t afford to be vengeful
Not to you…
What is in my heart now is pain
What I cannot mend is this wound so deep
And even though I am losing hope and losing faith
What is in the bottom of my heart
Is love…
That love always brings comfort
It has all the power to heal it’s own, and that…
Love causes tears
Tears that can wash off stains of yesterdays
Tears that can water our happy memories
Tears that can purify the soul and welcome forgiveness
Tears that can clear my vision
That no matter how painful life can be for us
The choices we made…
The chances we took…
The opportunities we passed by…
I am still here drawing strength from the bottom of my heart.
Believing one day, I’ll be singing this song “you never really love someone until you learn to forgive”
One day… I will learn to forgive.

(c) quirkyshine, 12/1/2019

***Ben and Ben is a name of a local band from the Philippines, who wrote and sang the famous song “Leaves.” It is a beautiful song, with a powerful medsage.

~No Traces~

Tonight, there is something to reminisce…
Of a love, of a boy, of a heartache
Still a bit clueless but I know there is something to remember…
Mine heart not easy to forget
Mind cares of who had left
Every night I want nothing more
But to mend this regret
Leave traces of him behind
Tonight, let it be the night
To send off memories to the sky
Consume my thoughts with all the “what ifs and should haves”
Till I get tired…
Till I get lost…
Till I run out of reasons
Tonight, is the night
To put these feelings to sleep
And to wake up one day
With no flashing histories
Cause the only thing I know is just his name

(c) quirkyshine

June 15, 2019

~9 o’clock pm~

Everytime I close my eyes
I see different scenarios
Of you, of us…
of breaking apart…
of you loving someone else…
of me struggling to breathe
Of you regretting…
of me moving on…
Yes, so many stories in mind…
so many thoughts run wild…

Then slowly fade
When I fall asleep.

(c) Quirkyshine

Morning Walk

Spend at least 30 minutes each morning in quiet contemplation, simply by being present. Today I decided to welcome Monday morning with a smile… allow the beauty of the glorious sun to warm my soul. Lord, You are so amazing. ❤ hashtag morning walk. Good Morning world! From Bohol, Philippines with love

~Walls~

Why are you building walls around your heart?
Isn’t it so unfair?
You were blocking me instead of her
You built a wall so very high I couldn’t break in
But you allowed her to get inside
Then she left you unwanted again and
This is the saddest thing about love
We build walls to keep the right people out
And allow the wrong person in to wreck us freely.

~whispers of sweet~

(c) quirkyshine

So this is how it feels…

So this is how it feels to love you…
It’s madness, it’s insane, it’s quite uncanny,
Yes! I know we are absurd,
And my heart could no longer hold that eerie, spooky, terrifying thing when it misses you,
I hate it when you are around and yet I grieve to death when you are not,
I despise all your words, most when you sugarcoat,
But I’d trade my life for them just to hear your sweetest lies,
Because that is what my heart believes in…
It believes in you…
That one day your heart will collide with mine
And that I don’t have to chase you for life
So this is how it feels…

(c) quirkyshine